The danger of freedom is this:
it’s too much,
gnashing our bones
between broken teeth,
and we are trapped
before we even realize
that we have borne
our own destruction.
The beauty of freedom is this:
that paper moment between
life and death,
birth and devastation
when we are capable of anything,
when we can swallow stars,
when we can grow orchards from our veins,
when we can hold the sea in our lungs,
when we can kiss the sun full on the mouth.
Icarus sang “Hallelujah”
as his body burned,
with lips seared and smiling.
If he doesn’t love you
the way you need to be loved,
for god’s sake leave.
Life is too short to keep breaking
your back for someone who doesn’t have a spine of their own.
There is strength in love,
so be brave and walk away.
If someone truly deserves you,
they will learn that love
doesn’t always mean letting go,
sometimes it’s in finding the strength
to grab a hold of you again
so you never find another
reason to leave.
Dear future child
If it’s 3am and you find yourself in a world of complete despair
Please do not turn to strangers on the internet for solace as I did
Please climb onto my bed
And I will hold you until the demons sleep
If it is Thursday morning and you are too sad to move
I won’t force you
I will buy ice cream and we will watch your favourite tv show and I will remind you of your importance
If you feel as if you have no purpose
I will remind you that you were created entirely with love and every pain you feel, I feel too
When you’re sure you can’t go on anymore
I will tell you that when I was 21 I searched for peace at the bottom of a vodka bottle chased by a bottle of pain killers
But that five years later
When you were placed in my arms in the delivery room
I realised that you were why I had been holding on
Without realising it, you saved me, do you know how amazing that is?
So if you ever feel like grabbing that vodka bottle, put it down, we will get in the car and I will drive until the sky turns magenta
I will show you how the sun rises every morning to encourage you to rise too
Sweetheart I refuse to be unaware of your sufferings
As my mother was to mine.